The last few weeks have been very challenging for me. Stresses have mounted, the schedule is getting busy, and quite frankly even though I feel like I’m eating well and have started going for walks/jogs the weight isn’t shifting (and some weeks has even gone up). I find myself becoming disheartened as I see other mums on a support page that I’m apart of having wonderful successes. What am I doing wrong? What have they got that I don’t have? These thoughts plague my mind as I keep trying to say no to unhealthy eating and work towards dropping the weight.
But is that the real reason I’m doing this? Is that the reason I’m embarking on this journey? Do I want it to just be about the numbers on the scales going down and fitting into a smaller size? When I took a moment to contemplate this my answer was a definite NO! This journey isn’t just about me! This isn’t just about losing weight and exercising, although that is a very big and real part of it. For me this journey is about four little people. These four little people are the reason I do anything. They are the reason that I’m working so hard at uni, as I want them to see through my example that if they work hard they can achieve their dreams. They are the reason that I want to live a healthier life.
Children learn their behaviours by example. They more often do what they see and seldom do what they are told. I know that with every decision I make about my health I have four pairs of adoring eyes looking on, watching how their Mummy will do things. I know that if I want to see my children living healthy lives then that is what I need to show them. With each healthy choice I make I know that I am equipping my kids to hopefully have the skills to make healthier choices as they grow. As I watch my kids chose healthy options I know in those moments that what I’m doing is worth it.
So while I’m not seeing the results I want right now, there have been some glimmers of hope that what I’m doing is worth it. When my children ask for the healthy options, or ask me if what they are eating is healthy, or chose to ‘exercise’ I know that this journey is worth every minute. #fitandhealthy2016 isn’t just about me, it’s about my entire family and the lessons we are all learning in the process. I know every days isn’t going to be easy but sometimes it’s good to just be reminded of the reasons I’m doing this. That gives me strength to get through another day.
This journey is for them… for my children. If I can raise them with not only fit and healthy bodies, but also minds and spirits then its worth it! It’s all that matters.